I'll be flying off in a month's time. Days without K really kills me. But still, I need to get use to it. K, it's really you who matters now. I will always remember how you asked me to go home that particular night. Just remember the good times and not the bad. I'm just so contented by you, K. I can't say you're one in a million or billion. You're just a special and unique guy that I've ever met. A feeling indescribable in me. No one can make me feel inferior when I feel. Let my love be the misty rain, comes softly but flooding in the river. Faith make things possible, come slowly. Success comes in can, not can't. K, you're not even giving yourself a chance and you asked me to give him one? Utterly disappointed in you, K. But I still love you as ever :x

I should have controlled myself from drinking so much during yesterday mid. I couldn't believe myself that I did such an atrocious thing when I'm drunk. Felt so guilty. Promised K that I will control the next time round. Or I should say, no more next time round? Yeah, perhaps.

Sorry for the stubborness that I have last week. Somehow regretted for not letting you to send me home. It's once in a blue moon. If you can spare me some of your time to me, I'll won't be always finding people out already. I just want to spend some more quality time together. I just hope you will ask me to stay rather than leaving and I really can't force myself to be with him when I got no feelings towards him. You should know the reason well, personally. I really don't want to hurt the dang on the earth too.

Life is like a novel with the end of ripped out. Life is like a humility. The art of life is like a portrait. Life is a prolong thing to manage. Life is full of obstacles illusions. Life is like a house of art's galleries. Life isn't unfair, that's only the thinking of yours. Life is like a house which filled with illness. The art of life is a portrait of illness.

Fiq, 9years and still counting on!

Plan failed to meet this cute lil' ass over here, Afico Lee. He went over to Arab ; Dubai during mid March. He's finally back to homeland last Friday. He planned to give me, us and everyone a surprise. But his plan failed. I need some catch up with this cute lil' ass brother of mine soon. I miss him to the max. Insert hearts, mulitply(X)915416547872. He asked me to send a regard to Ms Eileen and he, Afiqo Lee had let her down ever since he quit school. He's doing well right now [:

M, you're a grown up guy. I hope you know the definition between right and wrong. Think before you do everything. I promise you I won't tell them unless you stop what you're doing right now. This is a harm to your own self. I won't leave you to the lurch.

I'm at the point of on relum. So afraid of getting bumed. I want to take a change. Please, give me a reason to believe. Something to have and hold with my heart and soul. I need to know before I fall. Someone whose willing to stay around through all my ups and downs. I just want to pursuit of the vertical smile of yours. I'm totally head heels over you.

Why do guys so indulge in games when they once started playing? Games really took them away from me, us. I thought he will never be the one whom is so indulged in games. But I'm wrong. Totally wrong.

I thought I have a blissful family. Actually I don't have one. It's falling apart with the chaos around.

K, are you the most slightest within all? Tell me you're not please. I just wish to grab hold of your hands. I just want to find a way to compromise cause I believe that we can work things out. Everywhere I go, I get so confused. You're the only thing that's on my mind. I miss you more each day. If I could hold you now and make the pain just go away, I can stop the tears from running down my face in the future.

It's a poignant memory about between us.

When a guy treat you good, it can't be purely just good friends. But a status in return. Why is it when a guy and a girl meet, they must be in relationship after that? When a guy shower you with extra love and you have rejected them when you can't return back the same thing to them, all they can show you were the eyes of sorrows or hatred in them.

This shows how much I wanted you, K.

Does this reckon as one-sided? If in all this while is just one-sided, I want to get away from this harsh reality. But I hope this is not for real. And when can I spend more than 12 or 24hours with you? The answer you gave me was such an unexpected. Yes, you're the most important person in my life. Every word and sentence you once said, it really signifies a lot to me. I just want a turbulent flow with you, K. Is it that hard to you? Sometimes I find it hard to sleep at night because I don't know whether I'm still in my dream or not. It fills with the phantom of your soul right beside me. Well, good time don't last ain't it? If you're willing to give me a chance, I'll will make it right for you. Just only you. Sometimes I felt I'm not all alone 'cause you're here with me.